我哭红双眼

I don't remember anything when I reach home yesterday. The only thing I remembered was I sat at one corner of my room and cry.

Tears just flow out whenever i think of it. I wanted to forgive you, I wanted to stop thinking about it. But I just can't bring myself to forgive and forget.

I only know that this incident will be a crack and wound forever. And the thinking " you don't even care " is getting stronger and stronger. I'm leaving soon. I'm letting go and not holding on anymore soon.

Trust me. I meant what I say.

I'm sorry I have to hurt myself in order to feel better.