You're so not sorry

Look at Zhiyin =x

Today's journey : Cck > Cityhall > Funan IT mall > Bugis > Sheesha > Fucking home

People with me : Yonghwee, Hubert, Kian hwee, Christopher, Junwei, Orh orh (: , Jack , Boyfriend ( Came afterwards )

Alrighty. So I don't need to type out. So lazy to type. Ahah. Went to find my camera cable cause its lost. Idiot. Took pictures with Orh orh too (: I know readers out there are keen to find out who's orh orh. LOL.

I'm just being a little tinny weeny buey ba.

And presenting to you, Orh orh! Ok luh. He's actually Daohong (:

Smile lehhhh

That's better :D

He look so cute in this two pictures :D

Haiyo, tell you to smile le right?!

You give me no sense of security at all. You ask for it. Don't blame me. One day if you found out something, I'll be telling you, serve you right for treating me this kind of shit (:

One day, I'll make you suits the song " Don't love you no more " by Craig David (:

Flood you with pictures.

Lurvezxzxzxzx S T R A W B E R R I E S :D

Surya(Left) and Jeremy(Right)

Busy studying lah :D

Science practical. Playing with the lens. Look at my BIG eyes. Rofl.

Fang fang.

Laughs. I still got tons of pictures. But I don't think I want to flood my post with pictures. Make up really makes a difference man. See my first picture and the rest with make up. Its like WOW. I think it really does makes a difference. Haha.

School was alright. Boyfriend come to fetch me from school yesterday. Finally! A day that he didn't bomb me! Laughs.

Went down Stagmont as Orh orh wants to pass me stuffs. And guess what he pass me?! CHOCOLATES! Dark chocolates some more (: Of course, Orh orh bought chocolates for me because he wants me to cheer up.

Thanks Orh orh (: I just need your stupid yet cute faces lah! =x

Kor, where are you? There's solutions in every problems. Just come back. This house seems so weird without you around during every weekends. Sigh.

Emotionally drained.

你让我的软弱陪伴你的自由
你让我的懂事变成一种幼稚
离开我　你会不会好一点
离开你　什么事都难一点
那些美好的画面反复在播送
但心破碎了之后 要怎么去拼凑
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨
只怕再问 对彼此都太残忍
爱在崩溃的时候 比较真
太多疑问 知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人
心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持
孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子
放不开 也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子
I love you is not the words I want to hear from you.
Its not that I don't want you to say.
But if you only knew, how easy it is to make me feel.
More than words is what you need to make it real.
Then you wouldn't have to say I love you.
Cause I would already knew.
What would you do if I took those words away?
Then you couldn't make things new just by saying I love you.

I'll do up a proper post another time. My emotions has hit to the bottom. This is getting nowhere. I'm emotionally drained. The song 离开我 has made me cry... Made me think too.

Violet: I'm not ok! Don't insult me with the word "Ah lian "
Xiaohan: clairislee-smackyou@hotmail.com. In case you cock eye cannot see -.-
Orh orh: You're finally here! Yay!
Xiaofate: Text you le lah. Laughs.

Orh orh (:

Xiaofate says he like the photo of mine -.-

Met Jun and Orh orh at lot one today :D Boyfriend dua me for like 123456789 hours -'- Was freaking pissed cause its isn't the first time. Luckily Orh orh was there to cheer me up by making stupid faces =x

Boyfriend came down lot one to meet us. Usual routine, Slack, Chit chat, social smoking, eat and shit. Laughs. Boyfriend was nice to pay my meals and everything for me (:

Boyfriend send me home and he went to work. And thus, I'm infront of this lappie's screen staring at it like some retard.

And yay! I'm meeting orh orh tomorrow (:

Raymond: You got a problem with that? Ahah!
Kingsley: Updated quite long ago. Haha.
XiaoFate: Hellooooooo (:
RobertGoh: Hello Robert. Suprised to see you here. Haha.
Gavin: DON'T EXPOSED ME LAH! Ahah.
Yunling: Thanks sweetie (:

Ding dong bell

Me and the Panda lover (Mavis) (:

School was alright. Today was phototaking day. And I don't like to take photos. LOL. I think I'll get scolded for that sentence by a couple of people. Ahah.

As usual. I'm sitting cause I'm short! Short people rocks man! Cause they get to sit while the tall tall people are standing, Bwhahahahas.

Ok. I know I look weird without make up. Don't care luh. I'm wearing tie :D I look so good girl. No. I'm always a good girl :D

Oh oh! Look at Mavis' devil horns! Laughs. Its Debra's one anyways (:

O levels are coming and the same time ending! And so are Christmas. Eh, Jun Jun! 11th November uh. Laughs like mad!

I WANT TO GO WATCH LADY GAGA AT FORT CANNING PARK! TICKETS IS LIKE 75 BUCKS EH D: Roar!

P/s: Is there any handsome guys for me to liu kou shui at?
P/s: Singapore is definitely lacking of handsome guys D:

我哭红双眼

I don't remember anything when I reach home yesterday. The only thing I remembered was I sat at one corner of my room and cry.

Tears just flow out whenever i think of it. I wanted to forgive you, I wanted to stop thinking about it. But I just can't bring myself to forgive and forget.

I only know that this incident will be a crack and wound forever. And the thinking " you don't even care " is getting stronger and stronger. I'm leaving soon. I'm letting go and not holding on anymore soon.

Trust me. I meant what I say.

I'm sorry I have to hurt myself in order to feel better.

Pathetic first month

I'm here to update. Finally. Alrights. Let's start from the start of the day which is 180709

Went to meet Jun Jun, Daohong and Robert at Cck. Was late =x After that was town. Wanted to watch movies. Bought the movies tickets already and Daniel was sleeping all the way. But the movie start at 9.30 pm and he was awake. He didn't want to come down. Fuck you upside down.

The most pathetic first month I ever had. Fuck you. Seriously, fuck you. Ton ton ton. Never mind. Said want to celebrate, keep on reminding me on our first month. And now, who's the fucker that didn't want to come and celebrate it with me?

You don't even had the heart to come to town just to celebrate with me. All you know how to do is " my fault. Sorry. " Fuck you. If sorry got cure then what for do we need police? Your friends are just more important than me. Oh no. Type wrongly. You only care about yourself.

I'm pissed. Fucking pissed. I don't use vulgarities often ( Except for nnb cause I was influence =x ) . Those who know me well should know I seldom used vulgarities. It has been fucking long since I see so much vulgarities on my blog.

You don't even want to fucking reply my messages. Seriously, if you don't care about this relationship, or you don't love me, just simply tell me. I don't need you to sympathise me or what. Enough of your bloody fucking nonsense. That's the last straw.

Holy you, Pathetic me.

yo~ every1 JunAKAmonkey is here to help the small little girl update her blog =)

Le er (:

Woohoos. I changed my blogskin. No more plain plain blogskin :D

And and! I "slap" xiaolong yesterday. Laughs. Junwei was more power. Punches straight at xiaolong's bloody face. Can't slap properly cause he keep moving. I hold his face with my nails and he's screaming down there when I cut my nails already -.-

Serve him right for bombing us when both Junwei and me detest people to bomb us.

THE ASS YOU KICKED TODAY MAYBE THE ASS YOU KISS TOMORROW

Edited:

爱如果是求來的我也不想要
是我不好
是我还忘不掉
心痛只能用时间來消耗
毕竟当初是我选的一个
给不起我永远的人
就算是我不好

I want to be pretty! D:

I don't know what did my brother did to my lappie. Now its lacking like shit. Idiotic. Nothing much today. Just blogging cause I think my blog is going dead -.-

God damn tired luh. Best part, I'm still in a holiday mood. God damn it.

I'm upset. I found something that I'm supposed to give him. Something that I drew. Something that I wrote inside. Something that makes me reflect.

Doesn't matters anymore. I don't think so.

P/s: I like my blog song. But the introduction part is very very long which makes it not very very nice D: I still like it anyways! :D

I hope swine flu got me now. Kill me or let me die.